Updated: May 30, 2022
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CRACKS + MARKS
Wowwee. These last years left bruises, cracks, and stretch marks, yet left me feeling more stripped down. A change of pace, stillness, silence were all things I resisted but probably needed the most, life changing on many levels. When I say I lost purpose, I mainly meant that I needed to realign my purpose because what I was doing didn’t fit. While, this was a season full of challenges, I do believe this is making me a better person, one more deeply connected to my bigger purpose. For the better and maybe for the worst from this last year, I am finding a deeper clarity. My silver lining of this year will be in 2022 I am full force following my passions and pursuits with determination, focus, humor, kindness, consistency, and curiosity, a full send baby.
My heart craves different. In the next few years, I want to feel like I’ve been living in my fullest, most present self, for the last few years have lacked a bit of passion and courage. I’m choosing a new path. Finding love in poetry + nature, I plan to make more space for playful creativity, to make art, and collaborate. To continue to nurture my curiosity and gifts with full attention and focus.
During covid I started working on a couple projects and I want share them with you here. This site will be a space for me to cope. A place to grow spiritually, professionally, emotionally, personally, and communally, I am embarking in an effort to do better, maybe make some changes, and be positive impacts. My goals are to speak from the heart, imperfectly, broken, authentically, and kindly, and I plan to navigate with wit, humor, and data.
I started implementing daily practices into my day, practices like painting, Spanish, guitar, has taught me to slow down and sit with my feelings, explore what those feelings mean, then learn how to better express them, through art and communication in times of discomfort and conflict, or in the depths of love and intimacy, and while better engaging with the world.
Right now I just want to be, to be raw, chaotic, connected and content, makes me feel alive. Destruction and creation can go hand in hand. Spend time and focus bringing those things to completion and wholeness and hone my creative process.
Areas I've been working on is where my creativity meets structure. Decluttering my brain space and digital space (simplifying) has taught me to not let this stuff go for so long, while trying to learn to be more strategic and consistent. To be more clear with my purpose and vision, a process of uncovering soul work. What I'm learning is, “Art is important for it commemorates the seasons of the soul, or a special or tragic event in the souls journey. Art is not just for oneself, not just a marker of one’s own understanding. It is also a map for those who follow after us.”
What to expect from this space? A safe space for curious exploration through photography, poetry, creative writing, paint, and creativity. My hope is to light up souls and invoke sense of wonder. Working digging into a deeper purpose and a more insightful awareness, a wholeness living fully in ones truth. Things will be revealed in their own due time. Moving forward I am following a new thread, patiently and curiously to receive a deeper understanding. Here, I will share my work, a space for imagination, creation, and innovation, incomplete and riddle with inconsistencies and challenges. At times flowing, skipping, and halting during others. Now’s the time to try a new path, a course correction towards new goals, a quest for inner alignment, and putting old ones to rest. Taking time to do this, I hope to defining my areas of focus and help them interweave.
Covid knocked everything off course for me, yet may have shifted me towards a better path, a deeper connection to purpose. As I write this I am laying to rest a past self of mine. What changes need to be made to live in alignment with authentic truth?
I am learning I am to be, “both vehicle and destination.... the wild nature has a vast integrity to it. It means to establish territory, to find ones pack, to be in ones body with certainty and pride regardless of the body’s gifts and limitations, to speak and act in ones behalf, to be aware, alert, to draw on the innate feminine powers of intuition and sensing, to come into ones cycles, to find what one belongs to, to rise with dignity, (and) to to retain as much consciousness as possible”
Taking time to learn from past moments. Learning to ask better questions, to find the power in silence, and the love of taking time to listening to understand. I’ll trade feeling safe and comfortable for being heard. May this be my most productive and creative season yet. Let come. Let come. Let go. Let go.
Gather my courage, here, I go.
No time left for small talk
Only odes of open hearts
A space for sweet serenades.
When holding on for hope
Turns into sweet surrender.
Time now holds new meaning
Better days of dreaming
Now take shape in construction
Beginning with an art of action.